SIX MONTHS OF SILENCE
At first, the changes were small.
Richard stopped humming while he made coffee. He left for work earlier and came home later. At dinner, he pushed food around his plate while staring at nothing.
When I asked what was wrong, he gave the same answer.
“Work has been rough.”
But I had been married to him too long to believe that was all.
He looked frightened, not tired.
Some nights, he slept on the sofa in the living room and locked the door connecting it to the hallway. I would wake at two in the morning, see light underneath, and hear him moving around.
Once, I knocked.
“Richard?”
There was a long silence.
“I’m fine, Maggie. Go back to bed.”
“You’re not fine.”
“I said I’m fine.”
He had never spoken to me like that.
The next morning, he apologized, but the distance remained. He took phone calls outside and kept papers in a locked briefcase. Sometimes I caught him looking at me with an expression I could not understand.
It looked like grief.
For six months, I tried everything. I suggested a vacation. I cooked his favorite meals. I asked whether something had happened at work, whether he was worried about money, whether he was sick.
He denied all of it.
Then, one cold Thursday evening, he came home early.
I was chopping onions when he sat at the kitchen table and folded his hands.
He did not look at me.
“Maggie,” he said, “I need to tell you something.”
The knife stopped in my hand.
“I cheated on you with another woman.”
The room seemed to tilt.
I remember the onions stinging my eyes and the refrigerator humming. I waited for him to laugh, correct himself, or say I had misunderstood.
He did none of those things.
“I’m sorry,” he whispered. “I can’t lie to you anymore.”
