“Faded flowers on the lid.”
She closed her eyes.
“I buried that.”
We all fell silent.
She explained everything right there.
After my father left, she had gone back to the lot one last time before demolition. She found the recipe box in the remains because it had been stored in a lower cabinet that partially survived. She put family photos inside, one of my baby pictures, and a letter she wrote to my father but never sent.
Then she buried it.
She couldn’t keep carrying those things, but she couldn’t throw them away either.
Walt brought the box out from his garage.
Inside were scorched recipe cards, a photograph of my mother holding me as a baby, and an envelope with my father’s first name written on it.
I handed it to him.
“Open it.”
He looked at my mother.
She said nothing.
He opened it.
The letter was short.
There was no begging. No pleading.
She wrote that her son was alive because she carried him through fire. She wrote that if he could no longer love her, he still had a duty to love the child whose life she had saved. She wrote that she would not spend the rest of her life asking a coward to become decent.
He read it twice.
Then he sat down on the porch step and covered his face.
“I’m sorry,” he said.
I believed he meant it.
I just didn’t think that mattered enough.
I looked at Walt.
“You still need work done here?”
Walt glanced around.
“Porch boards. Fence. Couple of posts.”
I turned back to my father.
“Good. That’s the condition.”
He frowned.
“What condition?”
“I’ll pay for materials. I’ll help you get on your feet. But first you’re going to fix this place.”
He stared at me.
Then he actually pushed back.
“I came for help, not this.”
I cut him off.
“Exactly.”
For a second, I thought he might walk away. Part of me hoped he would. At least then everything would stay simple.
But he looked at the letter in his hand, then at my mother, then at the porch.
Finally, he said, “Okay.”
So for the next week, he worked.
Not symbolically.
Actually.
