She leaned down to kiss Lily’s head, then looked at Leo and smiled with ugly satisfaction.
“There,” she said.
“Isn’t that much neater?”
Leo moved behind Mark so fast it barely looked conscious.
Mark put a hand back without turning around and rested it against Leo’s leg.
“We’re not doing that tonight, Mom,” he said.
Brenda’s husband, Tom, looked between all of us with the shell-shocked expression of a man who knew something was wrong but not how wrong.
Mark’s sister Dana was there too, along with her teenage daughter.
Nobody seemed to understand why the air in the room felt so thin.
Brenda kept talking anyway, bright and brisk, as if she could manage reality by keeping the conversation moving.
Dinner was miserable.
Brenda carved the roast.
Forks clinked against plates.
Leo barely touched his food.
Lily stared at her mashed potatoes and said almost nothing.
Twice Brenda tried to make conversation about school, and twice Mark answered in one word.
Every time I looked at my son and saw the ragged buzz where his curls had been, I had to unclench my teeth.
Halfway through the meal, Brenda reached across the table and said, far too cheerfully, “Well, at least we solved the hair issue before picture day.”
That was the moment Tom put his fork down.
Mark dabbed his mouth with his napkin, set it beside his plate, and stood.
He didn’t rush.
He didn’t raise his voice.
“Before dessert,” he said, “there’s something everyone needs to see.”
Brenda laughed once, a sharp little sound of disbelief.
“Mark, don’t be ridiculous.”
He was already walking to the living room, pulling the laptop from its case.
Dana shot me a questioning look.
I didn’t answer.
I just took Leo’s hand and followed.
One by one, the rest of them drifted in, carrying the tension with them.
Mark connected the laptop to the television, picked up the remote, and pressed play.
The first clip filled the screen.
It was Lily in a hospital bed wearing a paper bracelet too big for her wrist.
She was smiling because I was filming, but her eyes were tired and her scalp showed through the thin new patchiness at her part.
The next clip came fast after that: hair collecting in a brush, hair on her pillow, Lily crying in the bathroom while I knelt beside her.
Then Leo, small and serious and still round-cheeked with babyhood, saying into my phone camera, “You can have mine until yours comes back.”
No one in the room moved.
The video kept going.
Leo handing Lily one of his curls to tug when she got nervous before a blood draw.
Leo refusing a trim in my kitchen chair.
Leo on the back porch telling Mark, “Boys can have curls.
